At the edge dangling my feet over. I’m thinking of water to my knees. I dream of floating in the depths on my back. Ears just under the water letting all my worries float away. He’d say where’s the pain in that? How would you know you were alive lazing around all day with no pain. He’s right. There’s got to be a lot of people out there that are way better at this than me, but I’m doing my best. I feel it when my heads not in the right place and getting it back is like trying to realign a speeding freight train. It goes so fast. Even when I breathe in the mantras and out the logical thoughts. That’s why these words are here, to act as an anchor. Cuz it’s all I have to pick me up and bear hug me until I’m back on track.